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Name: Pearl
Country: United States
State: New York
Metro: New York City
Birthday: 7/13/1988
Gender: Female
Interests: I love to make people smile and laugh. I like to poke someone. I love food, Pink cows (if there is ever one), Lion Dance, Karate, Canoe,sleep,more food, procrastinating, cars, More More Food!
^ Love Sux!! LoL
^hahaha whos missin who now? LOL
Expertise: Making u Smile and laugh, poking or geting poked, karate and being me
Message: message meEmail: email me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  Chidragoon
MSN: Pearluchke
Member Since:
4/14/2005
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| Oh god...packing....if someone can please enlighten me in the physics and logics of packing I will be in greatly debt to you. So another two more days till I see snow and the bustling Buffalo wind that chills me to my bones. HOw I miss the whispery cold air that tenses all my throat muscles....point blank: I DONT WANNA GO BACK. What do I do" I lock myself in my house and pack and do laundry and pick up the remainings of DIRT in my room... *sweep *sweep of course I'm sweeping in the comp...hmms in reality I dont think I'm making much progress...regrettably sad...Ah yes!! The extortion fee for knowledge has risen by $50 for late fee....talk about extra extortion... *yawn *yawn ZzzZzzzzzZ | | |
| It has been many restless sleeps at night. I dont know why Im up. I shold be sleeping... but im not. Afraid to wake up in confusion or to relive in confusion, I fade away. Why is a ton thoughts and some unthinkable thoughts keep crossing my mind. Why does it come up now? Just when I thought i got over some things, it seems it never fades away. Past feeling relive once again and I'm stumbled in confusion. Why does my mind plays such games with my head. Goodness I'm 18, lemme live without fear and stuff that intoxicates my whole head drving me insane...
These days its like I have so much on my mind. I dont know what it is but its a lot of stuf that came suddenly crashing down on me. Pressure and reluctancy crosses my mine at least 10 times a day in any form. Whenever I feel either of them I feel like shit! So I stay up and read a book that can somehow change my life. Instead it unravels everything in my life i try to ignore... even some of my past regrets. I belive I have like 3. And i have forgotten what it feels like to feel some past feelings. Such the joy of hanging out and some other stuff... I then now think that I miss some people in my life. Some I havent talk to in years and some who i may never able to talk to again. Some I wish told them some things sooner to save a life misery of a bad timing of things and some I just wished I spent more time with. Ehhs lemme not type anymore before i spill a longer rant than i have already...
TO CUT IT SHORT..: EARLY LIFE CRISES!!! | | |
| few days till i go home. Having mix emotions cross my mind at the moment. Need a second to think. Love and hate. Everything here in Buffalo is both of those. Then confusion. What does it mean to fully live? What does it mean to fully express? Since being here all i get is ignorance. Suprisingly i find bliss in it...I hate this place... But it has made me stronger in a sense...in another sense it destroys me...what to do....not sure...
I need sleep finals.......
I need a miracle for calc.
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| wow i have been M.I.A for a while. Entry for whatevers..lol not like anyone is ganna read this anyways right? So I'll just write this for whatever. So far this year my past has ended. I finally let a lot of things go and finally admited everyting for the firsttime in five years to someone. Now instead of having a relationship i ended up with a great friendship which is wayyy better!Techinically i dont neeed a relationship when im already married lol. 2007.....what else to say just for me to be a better person and live life like I never had a past before today. Of course no more cussing....would be another one and therer we go! Oh yes one more to be more optmistic in college and try to deal with "people"...idiots.. lol. Ok i be done one more week till i got back to college. Prop if want to, technicall i dont care, i just finished my rant hahahahhah!!
ok nvm this shit i screwed up big time.....fuck what to do.. | | |
| Hey Ya'll I havent updated in a while. How is eveyone doing? Hazzah!! *throw hands up! Almost Turkey day!! Yosh! So anyways I sent in my Smith Aplication ..again for transfer this time. DId I ever tell you peoples that sending online apps are a bitch!!!! I'd rather pay the $60 fee..but per and everyone will say "hell fucken no, waste of money, better fill that shit online, save your money yo"! Am I right? Turkey ...ahhs *drools yesh we should all hang! Ok I'm done
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